A Combustable, infinite robot

I'm a robot. An indestructable one. Tireless and energetic.


The end of exams, marks the start of my summer holidays. This holiday is suppose to be one that i am supposed to enjoy, such as meeting up with friends, non-stop action of basketball, spending money, etc...

However, what was expected of me is the part time job which i had worked since i was 17 yrs old. This pt job, for my 'summer holidays' is destroying my enjoyment. >12 hours a day. Everyday from 26 may til 5July. This is starting to take a toll on me. I am tired. I thought i can take it. but 2 more promotions and 17 more days. I'm losing it. Dead tired is the word. Half zombie is the person.

well, on the brighter side, i can see a lot of income. But all of these will probably go into the purchase of my new vehicle.

This vehicle, is a chopper, a cruiser, or in my own context, a safety bike. I ride with caution (and i hope to). I used it as a means of transport.

Anyway, with this transport, i'm still late for work. lol... well...

dead tired i am now. Lets hope and pray that my promotion on the launch of Prada new fragrance will be a success. And for all u guys' info, the robinson expo sales, 26th June to 5th july, i'll be there as well.. hehe..

See ya there!!

Charm: no pain, no gain.

Gone: another love one...

I have this big aunt who resides in Malaysia. She's the biggest sister of my mum. She saw me grow up thru these years. Every time when i saw her, she's always with this cousin of mine who is mentally disabled. This cousin of mine, thou older in age than me, behaves like a child who needs constant care. My big aunt is always by her side.

My big aunt, aged 70+, is filial. She loves her sons and daughters, from what i heard from my relatives. Whenever she has the money, or spare cash, they go to the pockets of her sons and daughters. She visits her mum, who is my grandma, whenever she can, but when she was there, she constantly thinks of her grand daughters and grandsons who needs to attend school and that she needs to prepare meals for them and take care of them.

She doesn't has much education but she's hardworking.

2/6/09, 6p.m., she took a fall, was hospitalised. Doctors said she suffered a stroke probably due to high blood pressure.

3/6/09, 1a.m., she was pronounced dead in the hospital, due to a burst blood vessel.

I was home at 2am. Washing my new bike with Huat. Upon reaching home, i was surprised to see my mum still awake. I thought she was waiting for me. Probably true, as she's concerned about me. But i think, she's feeling lost. Afterall, this is her sister who took care of her when she's young. This is her sister who played with her when she's schooling. This is her true blooded sister!

I felt her loss, just as much as i felt mine.

I thought: how can someone whom i just saw 2 months ago during my cousin's wedding in Malaysia, at my grandma's house, i talked to, i bought burger for, i ate with............. just be gone like that?

I can still vividly hear her voice in my mind, calling out my name. Her gentle tone and how she speaks. The way she moves and talks. The care she showed towards my grandma and my mentally disabled cousin.

She once told me, if she is to pass away, her only concern will be this daughter of hers, as she does not know who will take care of her and who she can rely on.

I'm thinking of that now.

For now, i would wish to get my offs from work and see her for the last time, but i couldn't. Too many promotions.

I think that is the last time i see of her. The last time i hear of her. The last photo i have of her.

The never faded life of her, however, is what i have seen of her. This will probably stay with me forever.

The lost of an aunt, the lost of a sister, the lost of a daughter.

I will always remember u, aunt, for all the lessons i learnt from u, seeing how filial u are., how caring u are, how lovely u are.

I love u.

My cousin : second from right.

My well respected aunt

My aunt.

Charm: Life's so unpredictable. One moment u are there, one moment u aren't.