this year 24 yrs old le... getting older.. feel that life is no longer as energetic and lively as before.
For my birthday this year, it seems that its the same as how the year has gone... lousy, disappointing. I missed my birthday last year, having PF celebrating for me, giving me surprises. I missed being romantic.. So what if there is someone who erm... is with you, even thou she's not ur gf... haha... its just as disapppointing. Cannot even make time for me.. Even my best friends cannot meet up with me this sunday for a meal.. and some more, i told them last month and they said confirm...
So, i spend my day studying in the morning, followed by project discussion.. oh ya... a million thanks to Jie Hua and Jerome. They bought me a slice of cake and a bottle of 7Up.. So nice of them even thou we dun noe each other well enough. Thereafter, met Andy and leon, spending and slacking my time with them.. and... even they forgot my birthday!!!
on thursday, went for my work and had lunch alone... however, there's this lovely gal, Chloe, who made my day... she met me after my work.. its been a while since we met up.. she brought me to a place.. so romantic.. haha... like i say, i'd not been romentic for so long... and she gave me my present!!! a cake baked by her... for a moment, i was really touched.. its been sometime since i felt the feminine side of a gal... i lost faith in them for months.. i was depressed.. but the world just light up for that 3 or 4 hours... a million and million thanks to her..
We just sat there and talk but its not like b4... it seems i'd been duller.. not so crappy.. i wanna to... Chloe agreed. she said i had matured... haha... did I?
Sometimes, i really missed those days when i was crappy... i can just be happy go lucky kind.. but it seems the events this year somehow changed me.. some people says i'm geeting to the feminine side... i dunno..
I Am DEPRESSED!!! Life is such a troublesome one... why cant a person be happy and not sad?
Charm: A happy go lucky guy may seems happy on the exterior but he may have more troubles than any other guy on the street.
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That is the price of growing up... everyone been through, u are not alone.... all of us waiting u to overcome what u facing now infront of u... cheer up! nothing can beat u, man!!! dun let those unhappy thing and reality beat u down.... there is always a way out somewhere...
I can understand how u feel, u are the kind of person that like to be surrounded by friends, u always the center focus in most of the event... and now u are alone struggling in study and work without ppl standing beside u... u feel lonely and pointeless, tire, endless.... something like that.... it will over, just a peiod of time... it will over, dun frustrated, dun feel sad...
i dunno how to console u and i dunno what rubbish i am talking, but remember one thing, always think of your goal. what u doing now is a process of getting what u want, if u give up, u will regret. be persistance and u will appreciate what u doing now....
em... sorry, i remember your birthday but i didn't know u are so unhappy recently....i tot u most likely have your programme already. let me know when u free, lets come out for a meal....on me...
hehe... really my dear dear cousin.. haha... thanks for ur concern.. =)
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