merry christmas and happy new year!!!

Its been weeks since i last blogged. I've been really really busy and tired recently. Busy with work and work and work...
My reservist is great! Its been raining and raining and we only did a pool dive, a sea dive which jerome hit 50 bars b4 we can even reach our destination, thus having to abort dive after about 50 plus minutes, and a virtual dive- dry dive with 02 circulating in our body, while we are sitting down, due to the foul weather.

There'd been 2 gatherings this month. One being the primary school gathering and the other being the secondary school one.

the primary school gathering was held in a bungalow in some ulu place in pasir ris, and we had a decent turnout of around 15.. Had a good chat, laugh and talking about the past.. Algene being the only person to come to our gathering first time since leaving our ala mata. Was great to see 2 of my best buddies that i am blessed with, bringing their gf along. They seemed stable enough to last long and i feel really really happy and touched for them. Thou i would love to have a gf too. haha... But the scar of the last one seems to have been little too deep for me.

This has been the case which i recently realised. Of course being a guy, my wound started healing, my heart started pounding faster when i saw someone whom i facied and think may be a girl whom i hope can last. but the thought of the process of efforts, money and time being invested in and in the end, getting a word, sorry.... is proving a little too much for me to having the determination to pursue the ideal relationship i wanted to.

Okie, lets get back to my gathering beore i continue.. hee... i had a bbq with my best pals at khatib reservoir on christmas eve. Again, i feel so happy for qf, my best pal whom i think i can never live without with. He's a guy whom i think i can share my woes with, a friend whom i had gone thru the ups and sowns in my life, of course taking into consideration my other great pal, zx. I was so happy to see the happiness he had with his gf. Lets hope that he would have a lasting and good relationship.

today, a gathering with my sec sch mates at marche in vivo was great. thereafter, i had my first time to ai qin hai in marina square with them. the atmosphere there was so great that my heart goes along with the sentimental songs that the singers sing. It would be a great venue for couples to spend a nite at.

Recently, i met some great gals. However, they are either too young or not in the same frequency as me. The toll of working a week of full shift in tampines, from 10 am to 1am or 2 am is taking my energy level down too. In vivo, i saw a gal who is only 16, but she possess the look of ou xuan, if not prettier, the kind of look i'd been looking for, her character is also so attractive. However, being just 16 and a little too materialistics, make me realise that well, i can only hope that i am 18 this year. haha...

while working in tampines, i messaged pf, asking her for a meal as i am near the place she worked. i received no reply, neither did a message of wishing her merry christmas.

the question: Am i really that bad a friend? i treat people with sincerity, but sometimes they just do not get any returns. I feel so unwanted by friends sometimes. True, as my cousin once told me that maybe i had been the center of attraction since young, the feeling of being left out now is something i have to adapt. Sometimes, i just wish to leave this place to go to another place, be it study or work. And i hope that this day will come soon. Just like another of my best pal, Danwin...

Merry belated Christmas and Happy 2008 new year!!! (may santa give me a gift of happiness next year, letting me leaving the unhappy memories of 2007 behind)

Charm: Before you criticise someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes. That way, when you criticise them, you are a mile away from them and you have their shoes!!!